i don't care who i hurt, i don't care who i do wrong
to you, i am such a
profoundly happy
person
that you cannot imagine what it might be like
how horribly it shreds me, from my core, to disappoint you
to be so unhappy
to you, i am such a
profoundly unfulfilled
person
that you cannot imagine what it might be like
how wonderfully it revives me, from my core, to disobey you
to be so fulfilled
to me, i am such an
indescribably lost
scrap of being
that i cannot imagine what it might be like
how profoundly it might describe me
in my joyful, unpossessed core
to be free