lights and balls and bells and whistles

We have often found the uncomfortable
to be synonymous with the unnatural
That the things we don't want to do
bring such good reason to our ultimate undoing

And if we want to trust the body
to follow the signals without any shame
We have to get out in front of it
so that the body might trust us back

So if we endeavor to address within and with class
these things that seem awkward and strange
We must follow the line of the wrist down and hanging
and ever keep moving the hand's increasing range

We have to use pride as a noble tool
and understand the purpose of being in school
We walk directly around spin standing
right in only our own-self-ish ways

Always this quintessential relative removal
displacing the action to another, later, step
But the change and the heart can happen now, now
when we're not all out of our own options yet

We only lose the ability to speak quietly
when we forget, forgo, unabet ourselves
We only find that we cannot reach ourselves
when we forget, forgive, and give in

It doesn't have to be a problem for later
when it's real and happening, present challenge, now
It doesn't have to be a grate dismal conclusion
when there's still yet more time and we can figure out how

Not every shame needs a separate apology
not every cross needs a dot and a tee
Not every shame needs a deeper embarrassment
not every share needs the entirety of me

It's not just giving away parts of ourselves
when we are making ourselves, anew, right now
It's not just coasting on nothing at all
when it is our body, our brain, taking that bow