unbearable

leave me on my own too long and i get suicidal
sixty dollar specialist, he tells me take some midol

all alone, from dusk to dawn
all my energies are gone

i wanna set it up
say i'm ready to say goodbye
goodnight moon, goodnight sun
but it's so goddamn hard to die

and i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda rude
the dreams in which i'm dying are the dreams where i'm a dude

aren't you brokenhearted, desperation
light breaks through a life's striation

there's no chance of changing the way that i am
'cause i can't stand the way that you say bethlehem

seamen, pour your cement
sing my soul a re-qui-em
soliloquoy on us and them
destiny dreamt of if and when