unbearable

leave me on my own too long and i get suicidal
sixty dollar specialist, he tells me take some midol

all alone, from dusk to dawn
all my energies are gone

and if you're gonna cry, you're gonna cry
then go sit over there and tell me why
tell me why you can't abide it, baby, mind it

but it's lonely, lonely, lonely, only
only i'm sure that's the way i like it

and if you tried to ask me who i am
nay how, say how, who knows how i am
if i'm better than a week ago, forget
forgot to take it, sit here and take it
reach across the carseat gap and make it

got no connections, if even the odd spawn
squashed like a bug 'til i'm gone, gone, gone

and i guess i'm pretending i see something you don't see
trying to see what it is you could ever want me to be

see, i wanna set it up
say i'm ready to say goodbye
goodnight moon, goodnight sun
but it's so goddamn hard to die

and i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda rude
the dreams in which i'm dying are the dreams where i'm a dude

where i'm something that's nothing, so unremarkable
as to shrink to a prick, life so unembarkable

aren't you brokenhearted, desperation
light breaks through a life's striation

seamen, pour your cement
sing my soul a re-qui-em
soliloquoy on us and them
destiny dreamt of if and when

there's no chance of changing the way that i am
'cause i can't stand the way that you say bethlehem

can't stand, won't demand it, reprimand it
won't put up that much of a fight, alright
it's alright, i won't bite, toothless night
nothing to sink my teeth into here with you

'cause if i'm gonna cry, then you're gonna cry
you're gonna sit there and listen to me tell you why
we're all gonna be miserable, melismerable
we're gonna grab me and ground me, together, try

give me a reason to try, my guy
to bend myself up outwards
to look lusting ever inwards
to find it even harder to die