and every single door that i've walked through brings me back

There are rules. There have to be.

A gentleman merely opens doors - those apparent, and those not so apparent, neatly found out of even the most puzzling situations.

A gentleman does not break down impassable walls to get what he wants. No no...he makes his peace with it. Pivots, and begins again.

That's why it's so troubling. He already had, and has, every single day for ten years, and now...

He can't do it again.

The rule numbered first of all, indexed at an empty zero: you cannot break the rules.

And you can never ignore the secret clues.