you better watch it, son

if i feel bad
(whether infirm or unwell)
(or maybe just bad, because i am)

but i don't tell you about it
(not until later, of course)
(or not at all, if i can help it)

then it's better
(as better as any such a thing can be)
(or maybe there's no helping it)

almost like it didn't even happen
(and if i didn't tell anyone, did it?)
(am i a martyr better served for having hurt?)

and maybe it won't happen again
(because i won't remember what it felt like)
(because i kept my unpleasant sensation to myself)

((sorry))